don't cry

Don't cry.
You say.
Don't cry.
I want to cry.
I want to cry,
I want you to hold me
And tell me I can.
But all you say is
Don't cry.
Finally, I tell you to hold me.
But, as I lay in your rigid arms,
And you smother me with unwanted kisses,
Kisses that don't mean I love you, but mean
I want you.
And nothing else.
I hear you say
Don't cry.
And I think of someone else,
Who would whisper,
And make my tears go away,
Even though he couldn't hold me,
I didn't have to tell him I wanted him to,
And I knew his arms weren't like yours.
And his kisses meant I love you.
And he would whisper
Its okay to cry. . .
Its okay to cry. . .
And I didn't cry anymore.

i thought you could

Exhausted from emotion
I thought for sure
That there'd be a message,
A long, heart-felt apology.
But there wasn't.
So I thought I'd hurt myself
One more time and check again,
I thought for sure I'd imagined.
But I didn't.
Then I saw you,
You, completely oblivious
To the neon sign flashing above my head.
"I need you. I need you. I need you.
Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!"
As it kills a broken hearted fly.
I thought for sure you'd take me in your arms,
Where at least they could love me.
But you didn't.
Your simple smile smirked at me.
And I thought for sure you'd apologise,
At least for the sake of getting yourself
Some much-needeed action,
And to relieve the tension hanging in the air
For mine...For me.
But you didn't.
Like I'd thought for sure the night before
You'd notice my sign, my tears, my ache
And give me a little comfort.
But you didn't.
You just said that you felt like hell
Because of consequences
Coming into play.
So I took you in my arms.
And I made you smile, I made you laugh.
I thought for sure I could drive home
Without the tears blurring my eyes.
But I couldn't.
I thought for sure those yellow lines
would strangle me.
But, they didn't.
I thought for almost sure you could fill the void,
Make my heart smile, my soul laugh,
Make me love you like I love him,
But you can't.

regarding my former poem, "don't"

Dear. . .boyfriend,
I want to applaud you
In your efforts to satisfy me.
You must've read my poetry
Like you said you did...
Because in regards to my former poem
"Don't"
You are doing an
excellent
job.
I've learned to wipe
my own tears.

wild heart

Tonight I'm going to say goodbye.
Tonight I'll break
Your heart.
Take away tomorrow
And leave you with nothing
But yesterday and
Our memories.
Tonight I'm going to break your heart
Because I can't take the deception
My heart is telling my head . . .
Because when you hold me in your arms
I close my eyes too tight
And I lie, In your arms I lie.
I never meant to hurt you
But my wings are beating against
Closed windows,
And I must fly.
You cannot tame my wild heart
But oh, I know you tried.