self-worth

I felt your burning stare
That sent my skin crawling
And I even saw that finger
Your whisper. . .so discreet.
So for your convenience
I thought I'd answer all of those questions
That I hope are burning your brains out:
No, I am not high because
Yes, my brain functions superior to that.
No, my mind is just fine-
You should know what I think of you now.
No I am not insane. . .
But I think I'm getting there.
No, I am not deaf,
I hear the taunts too well.
Nor am I a foreign exchange student;
I've been in this position many times before.
No that wasn't a prank phone call and
No this is not a dare. . .
This isn't worth your laughs.
No this isn't a game
Though you seem to think it is.
I'm terribly sick of playing
But roll the dice if you insist.
Yes, well maybe my mouth is full;
Full of unspoken words that could
Tear at your heart too.
But as I turn and walk silently away with
Tears burning my eyes
That I can't let you see and
White knuckles that would
Like to strangle you
I hope it was worth it.
I hope it made you smile.
I hope you found your
Cheap entertainment.
Because the price was high.
Tomorrow I'll forgive you
The hate will fade
Into your words, forever hanging in the air.
But you can't ever see my eyes again
Or hear them laugh
See me breathe
Or feel my smile
Because for all tomorrows
When we encounter
The lump in my throat,
The sting of my eyes,
The fire of my heart,
Will force my feet away,
Away from you and all of the rest of them.
Your faces, names, your circumstance
Are forever etched in a heart
You try to turn to stone
But you won't succeed.
So tell me,
Was it worth it?