puzzle

sometimes
i still miss the way
we fit together.
you-- two heads taller
than me.
my arm around your waist,
yours around my shoulders...
no space between us
as we'd walk.
(holding hands
put too much space
between us
to bear.)
or
my head in your chest
-- a perfect indentation for my crown.
and my body molding itself
into my nook in your arms.
parts perfectly matching
like puzzle pieces
glazed with the industrial-strength glue
of a first love.

behind the eyes

You used to call me your Angel,
And sometimes I wonder if my wings
blow our fairy dust dreams
Back to your eyes. Tell me, what do they see?
What do they feel? Is it impossible for you to see
What I can, behind your eyes? Beautiful.
My eyes can see my soul searching, feeling for your hand
because it needs you. Yes, its search is futile, but, oh. . .
How Beautiful is it that You can wrap me in your golden arms
And melt all the pain and fear. . .Forever into your
Cloudless heaven?!
How I crave your angelic relief.
I can still feel you . . . .
Even as the sands of time drip from our ever after glass.
(I can still feel you.)
Tell me, how many grains amount to your love now?
And do you ever wonder why the tear-soaked sea
Still reaches for those sands?
I've painted those tears; one for each year that I can't stop loving you.
But tears are useless, no magical powers,
Like the stars I wish upon that fall from your eyes.
One wish; it’s always the same. Can you hear it in the wind’s whisper?
I wish you'd let me save you. . .please, let me save you!
I can slay those dragons that destroy your golden heart
Let me touch your soul, like you did mine and give back to you
Everything so magical!
If only you'd let me save you!
If only you'd let me show you
What is behind your eyes
I could show you
"Beautiful."

Alpha and Omega

The Beginning and the End.
The Light of the World.
Most Holy and Perfect One.
The Prince of Peace.
You are so much greater than I,
And for my sins you chose to die.
How is it, you love me so?
Will you comfort me? I'd like to know.
Do you hear my prayers?
Will you calm my fears, and do you know my cares?
Tell me, I want to know.
Little One, I love you so;
This I want you to know.
I paid the debt to see you again,
And paved the way for all God's children.
I hear your prayers, I'll calm your fears.
I understand your hurt, and wipe away the tears.
I have felt your every pain,
After all, it was I who was slain.
I know exactly what you're going through,
I will always comfort you.

first kiss

Angel kisses, for the first time.
I could laugh, I could cry!
So afraid to put my trust in you,
But so happy to not be able to resist!
I'm laughing at my own helplessness
As I drown in the joy of your kiss' taste,
Just the way you make my heart race!
As I surrender to your divine passion,
I drown and gasp for your touch,
As your lips capture mine.
Then I take flight as your soul caresses me
And you wrap me in your wings,
Pulling me closer still.
And as I entwine myself in you,
I'm drowning and flying still
In the power of your soul.
Slowly, softly you subside,
Softly covering me with your Angel kisses.
Then you wrap me up in your arms,
Holding me tight you whisper "I love you"
And I think my heart will burst,
Sending an explosion of my love for you
Into the sweet early morning air.

anxiety attack

It hurts, the pain beyond you
And the pain because I need you.
Desperately Suffocating
From my own choking, deathly silent screams,
Twisted sheets threaten to strangle me.
And while I'm so consumingly terrified
Of something I can't quite decipher
Part of me pleads with their twisted, crisp, white arms
To take the pain away.
There in the darkness,
I cling despondently to your absence
For a moment I can breathe
And relief whimpers as you hold me and tell me
That its okay, you're there now.
I believe you, always, like always I believe you.
I gasp for hope, sucking it in like air to breathe.
Then realization twists the dagger
As consciousness betrays that it is only
A hopeless attempt to fight the pain
And that I am alone.
I want to cry, to drown myself in the tears;
But not even a sob can escape.

bandaid

When we were young we would
Wear our bandaids so pridefully!
Because we had endured some kind of pain.
Now, we wear the scars on our wrists
Shamefully.
Because we have endured such pain.
Big news travels fast in small places
Such as peoples hearts.
In five seconds flat,
Our secret of suffering is out.
And malicious, viscous taunts stab at us
Like the razor blade did, only deeper.
Even though we've healed and we are
Stronger, and more real
Than those superficial Barbie Dolls
Will ever be, they have a power.
Their words get under our skin
And eat at our hearts.

bff

Sometimes when you're wandering along this lonely road,
You need someone's hand to hold.
Someone to catch you when you fall,
Wipe away your tears and help you stand tall.
Someone to help make reality more like a dream,
Someone who's just like you, or so it seems.
Thats why I thank God that I've got you.
You're the one who helps me through.
You'll always be my best friend.
I'll be here for you, until the end.
You're broken hearts, I'll try to mend.
When you can't smile, mine I'll lend.
I'll help you up, whenever you fall,
I'll stand up for you, and help you stand tall.
Whenever you need me,
By your side is where I will be.
I'll be your shelter from the rain,
I'll help you find a smile again.
I can't say I know just what you're going through,
All I can say is that I love you.
And I understand one thing eternally,
That's how much you mean to me.
My arms are always open to you,
I'll always try to help you through.
I'll be here whenever you need me,
My best friend, you'll always be.