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I will rock you to sleep until you're two
I'll keep singing long after you can hear me anymore
but I will hear you.

I'll throw you lavish birthday parties and make too big of a deal.
It will start when you'll be too young to remember,
but I always will.

I'll spend too much money on Christmas and lost teeth.
And you may not remember what I get you each year,
but I'll remember every single thing.

I'll take a ridiculous amount of pictures and never throw anything away.
And other's will think my hoarding is crazy,
but I'll look at them with wonder someday.

I'll be paranoid and overprotective, examining every single sore.
I'll kiss you three times instead of one.
because I wanted you more.

before your hands turned cold

You died on a Sunday,
in the song of the rain.
The pavement was shiny,
my rushing in vain.

You left before I arrived.
And I felt myself fold
I wanted to see you
before your hands turned cold.

Your skin looked hard,
like green-yellow plastic.
Your tiny body was disturbing,
in a hospital bed so drastic.

A tear dripped down my cheek 
as yours received my kiss, so controlled.
I didn't want to lose composure
before your hands turned cold.

Your head was so big;
your brain ever-growing,
and your limbs so small,
atop a tiny trunk eroding.

Atrophy couldn't get past that iron-clad safe,
The one in your mind where it could never take hold.
Your brain was a fortress,
before your hands turned cold.

The machines were silent with respect,
and your eyes didn't flutter like before.
The blankets didn't rhythmically move
And I'd thought I'd wanted to say no more.

I thought I'd said everything I wanted to say.
I thought no more thoughts could be told.
But I wanted to warm your heart
before your hands turned cold.

For Uncle Guy.  January 26, 1965-April 17, 2011

a birthday poem for my sweetheart

I love you because you're very smart.

I love you because you're creative,

and you really dig my art.

I love you because your pillow has a name,

I love you because you're passionate,

and with baseball, it's never just a game.

I love you because you eat Oreos with a fork.

I love how you talk in your sleep,

and how just like me, you're kind of a dork.

I love you because I sleep better when we touch.

I love you because you teach me stuff,

and because sometimes you talk too much.

I love you because you take my sass.

I love you because you make me giggle,

and because you have the sweetest ass.

I love you because you're kind.

I love you because you're silly,

and you can always read my mind.

I love you because you're an ipod nazi.

I love you because you're my best friend,

and you don't like Phase 10 or Yahtzee.

I love you because you fall asleep at the drop of a hat.

I love you because you never yell,

and you protect me from evil cats.

I love you because you always know just what to say.

I love you because you're spontaneous,

and how on the road sometimes you have rage.

I love you because you hold me so well in your arms.

I love your sparkling, pretty blue eyes,

and how all the girls fall for your irresistible charms.

I love you because you have the greatest smile.

I love you because you inspire me

to walk just one more mile.

I love you because you're seldom stinky.

I love you because you watch chick flicks

and you don't mind getting a little kinky.

I love you because when you smile your eyes twinkle.

I love you because you're so much fun,

and you can always make my nose crinkle.

I love you because you make me laugh till I cry.

I love you because you stay up till all hours with me,

and double dare each other till you could just die!

I love you because you're so selfless.

I love you because I've gotten so used to being taken care of,

that I'm now rendered helpless.

I love you because you're spiritual.

I love you because you encourage me to be better,

even when I'm premenstrual.

I love you because your heart is the only place I wanna be,

for better, for worse, for now, for always,

You're my better half and the only one for me.

puzzle

sometimes
i still miss the way
we fit together.
you-- two heads taller
than me.
my arm around your waist,
yours around my shoulders...
no space between us
as we'd walk.
(holding hands
put too much space
between us
to bear.)
or
my head in your chest
-- a perfect indentation for my crown.
and my body molding itself
into my nook in your arms.
parts perfectly matching
like puzzle pieces
glazed with the industrial-strength glue
of a first love.

behind the eyes

You used to call me your Angel,
And sometimes I wonder if my wings
blow our fairy dust dreams
Back to your eyes. Tell me, what do they see?
What do they feel? Is it impossible for you to see
What I can, behind your eyes? Beautiful.
My eyes can see my soul searching, feeling for your hand
because it needs you. Yes, its search is futile, but, oh. . .
How Beautiful is it that You can wrap me in your golden arms
And melt all the pain and fear. . .Forever into your
Cloudless heaven?!
How I crave your angelic relief.
I can still feel you . . . .
Even as the sands of time drip from our ever after glass.
(I can still feel you.)
Tell me, how many grains amount to your love now?
And do you ever wonder why the tear-soaked sea
Still reaches for those sands?
I've painted those tears; one for each year that I can't stop loving you.
But tears are useless, no magical powers,
Like the stars I wish upon that fall from your eyes.
One wish; it’s always the same. Can you hear it in the wind’s whisper?
I wish you'd let me save you. . .please, let me save you!
I can slay those dragons that destroy your golden heart
Let me touch your soul, like you did mine and give back to you
Everything so magical!
If only you'd let me save you!
If only you'd let me show you
What is behind your eyes
I could show you
"Beautiful."

Alpha and Omega

The Beginning and the End.
The Light of the World.
Most Holy and Perfect One.
The Prince of Peace.
You are so much greater than I,
And for my sins you chose to die.
How is it, you love me so?
Will you comfort me? I'd like to know.
Do you hear my prayers?
Will you calm my fears, and do you know my cares?
Tell me, I want to know.
Little One, I love you so;
This I want you to know.
I paid the debt to see you again,
And paved the way for all God's children.
I hear your prayers, I'll calm your fears.
I understand your hurt, and wipe away the tears.
I have felt your every pain,
After all, it was I who was slain.
I know exactly what you're going through,
I will always comfort you.

first kiss

Angel kisses, for the first time.
I could laugh, I could cry!
So afraid to put my trust in you,
But so happy to not be able to resist!
I'm laughing at my own helplessness
As I drown in the joy of your kiss' taste,
Just the way you make my heart race!
As I surrender to your divine passion,
I drown and gasp for your touch,
As your lips capture mine.
Then I take flight as your soul caresses me
And you wrap me in your wings,
Pulling me closer still.
And as I entwine myself in you,
I'm drowning and flying still
In the power of your soul.
Slowly, softly you subside,
Softly covering me with your Angel kisses.
Then you wrap me up in your arms,
Holding me tight you whisper "I love you"
And I think my heart will burst,
Sending an explosion of my love for you
Into the sweet early morning air.