obsessive

Why do I evaluate my self worth
In comparison to my dress size?
Why did they have to make size zero,
When I was finally satisfied with one?
Why do I deliberately avoid mirrors?
Or ponder if I could get my waistline to single digits?
Why do I read nutrition labels, on bottled water?
Why do I hate myself, when I eat three meals a day?
Why can I fell my stomach blow up like a balloon,
When I eat more than seven nonfat crackers?
Why do I read beauty magazines,
When they make me feel repulsive?
Why do I find myself comparing even my toes,
To those that I feel I can never measure up too?
Why, when I look in the mirror,
Do I see an ugly girl staring back at me?