as i lay dying

My eyes can’t sleep
without your ghostly arms
I miss you singing me to sleep
I listen for your voice
but all I hear is heartache
your silence hurts my head
can’t you numb this pain?
I wish you’d just take me away
deep into your arms and
drown me in your heart
then I can live forever
can’t you see
I’m slowly dying inside!
I’m so lost and
I’m so lonely and
It hurts to breathe anymore
I think I’m starting to believe you
When you said, “It just isn’t meant to be...”
You had a choice
But you chose tears and anger
instead of me
And I can’t do this anymore
I can’t keep killing myself
over your anguished heart
I choose to live
and I choose to breathe
And to sing my heart to smile
as I lay dying